Tuesday, December 06, 2005

I do not know how to grieve. It’s obvious that I cannot. I can perform grief, I can perform acts of control over the performance of grief. I can even outperform my performance in sleep and wakefulness. But I cannot grieve.

And this much is surely required to be given. A certain amount of pain is required to be visceral. Unworded, unmanned and untamed. I don’t know how to do this.