Thursday, May 22, 2008

Today, I transcribed a storm.
And as I listened to snippets of voices from 2007, I was reminded of my year of bad Hindi music.
Every interview I conducted in my lovely studio apartment has loud Hindi music in the background.
Bad, repetititve, banal, Hindi music.
I wonder what I would have done without it. I wonder why I needed it. I wonder what to make of it.
In the manner of a bad academic, I am prone to bad thinking.
Incomplete, pointless, meandering thought.

Aasman ke paar shaayad, Aur koi aasman hoga

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

The summons have come. The roles are in place. I am tired.
Curtain call.

Monday, May 12, 2008

My finds of the day:

GOLDSPOT



AND



AND lastly,



(Watch Kitu Gidwani in the last; ah such fond Doordarshan memories this brings back!)

Thursday, May 08, 2008

It's one thirty. I tether between the sleepless and wakeful.
I type at the speed of sound and think nothing of not thinking.
Am quiet. The night is still.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

There are things I miss about home. There are things I miss about early, foolish youth.

It's four in the morning and I am back in my apartment.

I would like to be out on the streets. On a motorbike.
I would like to be cold with the promise of home when the sun rises.
I would like to be on my way to the top of the hill that holds the ruins of a myth.
I would like to climb the tree that sways towards the moon.
I would like to ride back with drunken comrades.
I would like to cruise lest the tank run dry.

I would like to line up on the patio of the cafe waiting and yearning for cheese omelettes.

I would like to get to bed at noon.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

All day today, all day yesterday...I was at a conference on gender and sexuality...

More information here.

(This semester has been greatly productive in seeing what is out there. How to talk about work. So many ways.)

Things I walked away with:
(1) Sex work and work
(2) Trafficking, prostitution and sex work: Why must they be differentiated? What are the axes along which they are conflated?
(3) Spaces of capital: Continuity/ Supplementarity/ Standing apart

Wondering if I am here to stay....damn! I'm not sure I want to get to that conclusion yet. Damnation and double hell!